|I promised I'd get around to it eventually
||[Dec. 24th, 2009|08:12 pm]
|||||Hymn To The Fallen - John Williams - Saving Private Ryan||]|
"So, how do you feel about the breakup?"
Good question. And one I've been going around and around on in my head for a while now. Intellectually, I'm fine with it. I know that it's best for both of us. I don't want kids. Honestly, I guess I never really did. I just fooled myself into thinking that I did for Myra's sake. But, as the time came closer and closer for when we were scheduled to start trying for them, my true feelings came back, and I had to tell Myra. We gave ourselves time for either of us to change our mind on the subject, but it wasn't going to happen...
So, like I said, intellectually, I'm good with it. Emotionally? I could be better. I feel like I failed. Other than one uncle, no one in my immediate or extended family that I am aware of has ever gotten divorced. The worst part was telling my parents. I called them, and told my mom, as dad was currently driving. Mom told me that dad would call me when they got home. He didn't call that night. The next day, I got an email from him saying "I have to wait for a while before we talk. Right now I feel like there has been another death in the family." (His uncle had died fairly recently, hence "another".)
I've been sitting here for about ten minutes now thinking and not typing, so I guess I'm done with the stuff that I feel comfortable saying. There's more to it than that, but that's the basics of how I feel on the subject.