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Christmas at Ground Zero... [Dec. 3rd, 2001|01:46 pm]
Kurt Onstad
The whole Christmas thing is sneaking up on me again. I've gotten one gift so far. Which is actually better than I did last year. I think I bought all of my gifts on Christmas Eve last year, except for Riki's...I always put a lot of thought into gifts for whoever I'm going out with. But, my family (who are the only other people I buy gifts for at Christmas) really need to spell out exactly what they want from me, because I really don't know them well enough to try to figure it out, and as many of you know, I've never really had the inclination to get to know them better...This year they told me "would much rather you spent some time w/us and planned something fun -- means a lot more to us than 'stuff'." While that's a nice effort, I think it's a case of too little, too late. I'm never comfortable around my parents, because I constantly feel like they're judging me, and wanting to tell me what to do...Also, we're such different people. As I've said before (although, I don't remember if I've said it here), if my parents hadn't actually been my parents, and I just met them sometime randomly, after we were done talking, I think that both they and I would walk away thinking, "Well, thank God I never have to talk to them again." But, because we are related, they feel the need to keep trying. I, on the other hand, don't see why that should affect things, and would be perfectly willing to pretty much break all contact with them...But, I can just imagine how they would respond if I actually tried to do that...

Thankfully, at least they've moved to Arizona, so I have a reason not to visit them that often. But, until I have a family of my own (which isn't likely to happen anytime soon...), Christmas will be one of those holidays I just won't be able to avoid...

Kurt
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[User Picture]From: self
2001-12-04 01:38 am (UTC)

Reality Check

You think it'll be avoidable when you do have a family?
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[User Picture]From: speedball
2001-12-05 04:57 pm (UTC)

Re: Reality Check

No, but I'll be able to avoid Christmas with my parents more often...

Kurt
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