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Most recent date... [Dec. 7th, 2000|02:33 am]
Kurt Onstad
[Current Mood |distracted]
[Current Music |Chicago - "Remember the Feeling"]

Riki and I got together Tuesday, in spite of my calling in sick to work. I had (and still have as I'm writing this) a mild sore throat. I explained to Riki that I didn't want her to get my illness, but I felt fine, other than some pain when I swallow, and if she wanted to risk it, I was still up for seeing her.

So, she and I hung out here. She brought a couple of books that we read together. One was a collection of math and logic puzzles created by Lewis Carroll. That was a lot of fun, for both of us. We also spent a lot of time talking about our exes, past relationships, and that sort of thing. I got to see the look of surprise on her face when she found out that I've only had sex one time in my life, and figured out who it was with...

In an email to me, she had told me about the different people she's been in love with. She's been in love three times. I've been in love once. No, twice. But, both times they were unrequited. I'm looking forward to one day being in love with someone who loves me back. That sounds really nice. I explained to her last night how I constantly use the word "love" too soon in relationships, but that's only because my definition is different from most people's. To me, there's a big difference between "I love you" and "I've fallen in love with you." That gave us this little tidbit of dialogue...(Don't have it exact, but this is pretty close)

Kurt: So, if sometime in the next month or so, I say 'I love you,' just remember this conversation.
Riki: Okay. I'll probably have a brief moment where I freak out a little, but just for 500 milliseconds or so. (Translation for the math impaired, that's half a second.)
Kurt: Okay. It's when I say, 'I've fallen in love with you,' then you can freak out.
Both: (Laughter)

Okay. If I'm going to have any chance of feeling better tomorrow, I need to sleep.

Kurt Onstad