|Holy crap, that's depressing...
||[Apr. 14th, 2001|04:54 pm]
I've been wandering around random LiveJournal sites today (I had reasons for doing so that I won't go into right now), and so many of them are filled with these pre-teens and teenagers who all sound so depressed and alone. One journal I read actually ended each entry with "I wish someone would kill me."|
Now, I had some of these thoughts when I was younger, but I ended up in therapy because of it. I really wonder if the parents of these kids and young adults are aware of these sites where their children are pouring out their pain for all the world to see.
Never having kids...
The girl who refers to herself as Lucy below is actually Riki.
So um I was just starting my live journal and i wanted the name speedball, BUT YOU HAVE IT! he is my most beloved superhero! do you know that? why did you pick that name? Just curious.
Go check out my very first website
, and you'll understand. Also, go to Google.com and do a search for my name (Kurt Onstad). No one has a stronger association with Speedball on the net than I do...
World's biggest Speedball fan...
2001-04-17 10:19 am (UTC)
Well, my feelings about this topic must be disturbing and complex, otherwise I wouldn't have just spent five minutes picking at my split ends while I thought about what to write. (Hi, it's Lucy, by the way.)
The more I've thought about it lately, the more I don't want to have kids. Surviving my own adolescence was a challenge. Surviving the experience of watching my brother go through it, and knowing that I couldn't help him because he wouldn't listen to anything I said, really hurt. I think that feeling would be magnified several times if it were actually my _offspring_ (a) going through that pain and (b) not listening to anything I said.
My one surviving grandparent has so many great-grandchildren already that she doesn't care. My parents have said that they aren't desperately anxious to have grandchildren. So that helps. (Man, it would suck if my parents were pressuring me to get married and have kids. I recently found out that that's a big part of what broke up my brother and his ex.)
Fortunately, when we grow up, we realize that other people don't care nearly as much as we thought they did about things like how we look, how we dance, and what we say. I think most teenagers are self-conscious to the point of pain. And I don't think you can just explain this to a teenager and take the pain away. There's a big difference between having an intellectual understanding of something and the actual experience.
I think that to watch my own child going through the growing pains of adolescence would take faith and patience in quantities I don't possess.
All this is adjunct to the fact that a lot of the genes I carry are not ones that I would feel good about passing on! Maybe there'll be a cure for everything someday, but I'm not going to have the kid and then hope somebody comes up with a cure before the genetic switch flips on.
Oh no mister man! I love speedball way more than you could ever imagine! My room is plastered with pictures of speedball! But I saw your original web site (which is very good!) and was wondering if you would be up to a challenge of speedball trivia!
2001-04-17 01:57 pm (UTC)
Two fans, lost in the kinetic dimension...
Wow. I never thought I would have to battle it out for the rights to the "World's Greatest Speedball Fan" title. What do other people think? Should I take Clayton up on his challenge? Since I have every single appearance of Speedball to date, chances are that I'll win, but should I accept this challenge, and prove how much of a geek I am? Should it be a public challenge? A private duel in email? How would you handle this, good people? (Oh, and you too Self.)
World's Biggest Speedball fan...Until further notice
2001-04-17 06:57 pm (UTC)
Here's my two cents on it.
You should take him up on the challenge, and you should do so publicly. Here's how I'd set it up:
First off, START A NEW STREAM. I'm interested to see what happens with this competition, but really, it doesn't belong in the same place as teenagers wanting to die and Lucy not wanting to bear children. In fact, if you have the ability to take all of the Speedball-related posts out of this stream and start a new one strictly for 'em, that'd be good.
Second off, you both need to agree to be honest and honorable about it. This is a geek competition - looking in your copies of the comics is cheating. Only use what knowledge you've got in your head. Only use the comics as ways to verify answers once they've been posted, if necessary.
Thirdly, the method of the challenge. Since the visitor issued the challenge, I think he should go first. Grandturismo should ask a question. Then Kurt will answer, and ask another question. Back and forth, until someone isn't able to answer. Again, no cheating.
But that's just my two cents.
2001-04-17 07:32 pm (UTC)
Re: Speedball competition
Sounds good to me. Unfortunately, taking the ones that are already in this thread to a different thread is nigh-impossible...
But, a new thread begins...
On my livejournal I posted an idea A chat room on aim so we can have a real time challenge that wouldnt allow comic book cheating we could continue the conversation there
2001-04-30 01:43 am (UTC)