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Hello again. [Jul. 15th, 2001|12:54 am]
Kurt Onstad
Thank you all for the comments made to my previous entry. It was definitely appreciated.

The big news right now is that Riki and I are no longer together (and look, here I am posting in my Livejournal again...Coincidence? Probably not.) Oh yeah, and Megan and many other people now from that group of friends are aware that this journal exists and how to find it (Thank you, self. Mmmmm...Worms.) So far no huge consequences of that. So, let's get back to writing stuff that will cause those consequences, shall we?

Riki's and my breakup wasn't really much of a surprise to me, and didn't seem to be too much of a surprise to her, either. WARNING: I will now be telling you more information about my sex life than you may want to know. She and I had grown pretty distant over the last couple of months, and I had lost interest in sex. Not just sex with her, but sex in general. Although, sex with her had become a huge pressure for me. We would have sex, but because of the medication she was on, it was very rare that she would reach orgasm. This frustrated her (understandably so), often to the point of tears. So, I became less and less interested in trying again.

I'm pretty much okay with it, though. Which, considering just a few months earlier I was telling people I could see myself marrying this woman, shows a little bit about how detached I am emotionally...Which leads me into my next post.

Fun, fun, fun...

I used to use aliases for everyone but myself, and those who were completely out of my life. I've changed that policy, but since I can't change the comments to reflect that, this is here to let you know that references to Lucy down below in the comments are actually referring to Riki.

[User Picture]From: self
2001-07-15 02:36 am (UTC)

A new market for Hallmark greetings...

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From: rwmidl
2001-07-15 11:32 am (UTC)
Welcome back!
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From: sally_d
2001-08-19 10:10 am (UTC)
You are very readable. I like you. But I want to know if Lucy kicked you in the behind for this because you deserve it.
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[User Picture]From: speedball
2001-08-19 01:32 pm (UTC)


Nope. I'm very lucky. With a couple of rare exceptions, anyone I've dated, I've stayed friends with afterwards. Things are still a little awkward between Lucy and I (which I talked about here), but I'm sure that will pass, as it did with pretty much every other woman I've gone out with.

I don't talk to many of the women that I've dated anymore, but that's more to do with the fact that I've grown apart from almost all of my high school and college friends and acquaintances. When they were still in my social circle, we got along just fine. In some cases, better than when we dated...

"Neat! I'm gonna die alone!"
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