Dammit. Typed up a lengthy reply, but failed to hit "post comment" before Quicktime Installer rebooted.
To summarize: I don't know.
I spent over a year networking. I attended all the cons, and I made a ton of contacts. But I didn't have anything to sell them. I still don't.
Between then and now, I cut myself off from that to devote full time to a career opportunity which depended too much on unreliable people. The project never got funded, so there's some more months of my life that I'll never get back, and look, all my momentum's gone. Lovely.
I'm closer to actually working on my comics now than I was last year. But I've still got some software and equipment to acquire, not to mention another source of income. I suspect the state of the industry will be very important to me next
year, but not this. For the moment, I have nothing to show, and little to learn.
Proximity to a goal I can't reach.. Is it inspiring? Is it disheartening? I'm not sure. But I can tell you I've been a little more disillusioned each year at the con. It could be coincidence, more closely symptomatic of my life not being worth the paper it's written on. Or it could be that I need to be in the spotlight, and all this behind-the-scenes nonsense is slowly killing me. Attending ComicCon is either a useful distraction, or extremely harmful. Either way, skipping it this year sounds reasonable.
On top of that, of course, I can't afford admission or housing. If this changes, it's because I have a job that won't give me Thursday or Friday off so early in. I don't think big brother's coming through with the press passes this time...Phil
's asked me twice if I'm going. I've ignored the question. He may be able to cover admission and housing through his various sponsors, but it would mean committing to some significant booth time. And my time is scarce if I'm properly employed. And I'm not convinced any time in the booth is going to be healthy right now. So, I'm not going to ask for that.
I'm not saying no. My outlook could change; I could end up in attendance. Stranger things have happened. But, I'm not making plans just yet either.