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Another day, another accolade... [Oct. 11th, 2000|08:10 pm]
Kurt Onstad
So, here I am at work, and they've updated the list of the "Shining Stars." Those are people who submit the most useful feedback in a month. Guess who's on that list (of two)? That's right. Me. I keep getting surprised by this stuff. I mean, this job was my "I don't want to have to think about work" job. I like being able to go home, and not be stressed about work. While I'm at work, I'll do the best job I can, but as soon as I leave the building, all thoughts of work leave my head. It just amazes me that this job that I think of as "just a paycheck" for the most part, is the one that I've gotten the most recognition for...Ever.

Of course, thinking about it, I don't feel like I've ever had a job that wasn't just for a paycheck. None of my jobs have moved me towards the career I was interested in at the time...And right now, I don't even know what career I want to move into. I still dream about being a rich and famous actor, but that's more of an abstraction than an actual goal.

Here I am, in my mid (starting into my late) 20's, and I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I'm good with computers, but do I really want to be a techie for a living? I love to act, but am I prepared to live my life either a) unsuccessful and broke, or b) successful and with no private life whatsoever. I'm enjoying writing lately, but I've already discussed my problems there, and add to them the same ones as acting. I was a tutor, and really enjoyed that, but I don't want to teach groups as I learned from my experiences in college.

Well, until I do figure out what it is I'm meant to do with my life, I guess I'll simply enjoy the attention (and money!) I'm getting here.

Kurt Onstad
Feeling like Chandler from "Friends..."