|More reunion thoughts (aka What's in a Name?)
||[Jul. 21st, 2002|06:14 pm]
|||||Forever - Queen - A Kind Of Magic||]|
Very few of you will understand this, but man was it weird being called "Dave" over and over again. My nametag said "David 'Kurt' Onstad," but only two people there were aware ahead of time that I had changed my name after leaving high school: Ilya and Jaymee. Ilya, because we kept in touch for a few years and Jaymee and I ended up going to the same college, and I tutored her in math (She's now a computer programmer who loves math. I did my job well.) Jaymee was the only one who actually called me Kurt last night. I explained to everyone about the name change, but none of them could accept it. Amy came closest. I think I'll be able to convince her to start calling me Kurt after exposing her to the name a few more times.
As I think I've said before, Dave feels like a different guy than Kurt is. A little bit of Dave came back last night, but for the most part, I was Kurt. I've become a whole lot more self-confident, and happy with who I am as a person since high school, and the name change was part of that. That's one of the reasons I'm so insistent on people (especially my parents) calling me Kurt. I don't particularly like Dave. Kurt's got his problems too, but overall, Kurt's a much happier person than Dave ever was. Sometimes I'd like to go back in time and introduce Dave to Kurt, to show him what he could be...
Man, this entry really makes it sound like I have MPD, but I don't. I just think more four-dimensionally than most people...
Say it with me now...Kurrrrrrrrrrt