||[Aug. 15th, 2002|11:47 am]
|||||frustrated, yet still hopeful||]|
|||||Fight Against the Tide - Asia - Archiva: 1||]|
Okay. I knew going in that in a long distance relationship, I wasn't going to be able to see Amy very often. I understood that, and was okay with that. It's not ideal, but it's livable. But, this telephone tag we're playing is getting ridiculous, and more than a little frustrating. I called Amy Sunday night after work, and left a voice mail. I called again on Monday night, because I got off work early, and thought the chances of reaching her were better. Tuesday afternoon she called and left a message on the machine, letting me know that her phone had been off while she was house sitting (isn't that normally when you would want your cel phone on?), and didn't get my messages until that day. So, I called her back, and reached her voice mail again. Last night when I got home, Reed tells me she called again. So, I try her cel phone. Voice mail. Just to make sure, I try her home phone. Answering machine. Damn. I won't be home tonight because of AOKP (although, if I knew for sure that she and I would be able to talk, I'd probably skip it). Friday night I'm seeing a movie with Joel (and whoever else RSVPs). So, Saturday is looking like my next chance to talk to her, and then soon thereafter she'll be on that field exercise for about a week.
I never thought I'd say this, but I'm looking forward to getting a more normal work schedule...This 11:30-8, while good for my sleeping pattern, is part of the problem that is causing us not to be able to talk as often as I'd like to, since Amy works has to be at work at 7am, and so usually goes to sleep around 9 or 10pm.
The other part that makes this frustrating is Amy has no internet access, so these messages are our only contact with each other. Earlier, I talked about how Riki got all dramatic about not seeing each other for four days. But, even when we didn't see each other, we would IM or email each other every day (or nearly so), so there was some sort of constant communication going on. And if Amy had some sort of online presence, it'd make arranging times to talk on the phone much easier. I can understand her reasons for not being online, but it's still frustrating.
I really want this to work. I look forward to the day when Amy and I are no longer "Um"s and can say we're boyfriend and girlfriend, or whatever other title gets introduced into the relationship, but for it to progress, there needs to be some communication, beyond voice mail and answering machine messages...